Will Power and Self Discipline - Experiment

After a week of 12 hours works day and immense stress, I find myself wanting a vacation. Good thing I leave for Alaska in a week. Unfortunately, my body says it needs a vacation now which makes it difficult to get any work done. My room is a bigger mess than it has been in months, the house is a wreck, and I can't even bring myself to make anything more complicated than Fruit Loops for breakfast. Good thing I made all my lunches on Monday. Anyhow, I've noticed a pattern of this type reoccuring in my life. I work really hard for a week or two, taking no breaks, then I realize I'm human and need breaks and don't do any work for a week. Normally that week would be a very depressing time for me as I kick myself for not doing anything and then wallow is self loathing. This week I've decided to accept that I am human and not fight myself over it. So after sitting in the shower for a half hour allowing myself to enjoy the water rushing over me while I just wasted time and analyzing this new realization I decided I couldn't get a good enough grasp of what was going on on my own. So I turned to God for understanding. After some complex processing which included a few flashbacks I concluded to do some research on developing discipline. The first couple sites I read were indeed exactly what I was looking for, so off I go on a journey of self exploration in the areas of Willpower and Self Discipline.